Soo afther falling down over and over again i kind of found myself in trying to just breath and be alive...
Life is soo hard when all you deal with is disappointment... i know i made my own bed but how ever life kind of turns on me from time to time....
Anyway here is the thing im soon selebrating my birth day and realising that i have lived what culd be half of my life....a third of my life i spent with a man that one day decided to become a wight lifter and decided to prioritize powder shakes and testosteron instead of the things like famaly and botel milk....soo i got depressed and took of and left.....instead i got in to famaly buissnes ohh lovley famlay a dad that dont know what hes doing a brother that thinks he knows everything another brother that thinks he can be a "boss" a poor mother that tries to get everyone to get along and me.... and what am i.....
i guess im trying to pleas everyone but now in this "new" life im finally seeing clearly realising that my brother havent been in my home ever since i moved from home my other brother that promised me to help me move in to my new apartment but decided that he didnt want to, leting me carry all of my stuff up 4 stairs alone okay soo i askd my dad for help with the big things but...he has bad knees soo i feelt guilty to have to ask him..... do i need to tell you that in all of this my health is not the best either....
in all of this mess ofcourse i had to fall in love again and like always the guys i meet there is always some sort of problem....and this one loves to hang out on awsome webbsites that i probably shuldne mention here maybe i will blow up hes perfekt little online life and i wuld not like to do that now wuld i :)
soo if your still reading your probably thinking im a diva or maybe wierdo, or maybe something else you have in your vocabulary of "totally fake words i have to use" but you know what when my dad asked me the other thay why i cant just be normal my answer is simpley f*** it you know what , hate me if you like, screw my life up if you like and pleas do tell me how to live my life but ever expect me to listen.
This world is fake , we put in fake b**s , we have fake lifes and all are trying to be the same in a world of normal what ever that means but im soo sorry but your probably living in somethign fake right now....either your husband is f*** someone with out you knowing it or your famaly hides the sicret of a drug problem or similar maybe your adopted and dont know or maybe your having a sickness and trying to pretend that all is okay and soo on....oh yes i culd do this forever.....
soo if your still reading your probably thinking that im a negative person, and...
YES i am cuz i know reality and im sorry to spoil your day but somethimes its better to exept a horrible truth then to live in something fake. Believe it or not but i feel better once i eccepted that life is what it is.
thats it for now....sorry if my spelling is bad lol....
Life is soo hard when all you deal with is disappointment... i know i made my own bed but how ever life kind of turns on me from time to time....
Anyway here is the thing im soon selebrating my birth day and realising that i have lived what culd be half of my life....a third of my life i spent with a man that one day decided to become a wight lifter and decided to prioritize powder shakes and testosteron instead of the things like famaly and botel milk....soo i got depressed and took of and left.....instead i got in to famaly buissnes ohh lovley famlay a dad that dont know what hes doing a brother that thinks he knows everything another brother that thinks he can be a "boss" a poor mother that tries to get everyone to get along and me.... and what am i.....
i guess im trying to pleas everyone but now in this "new" life im finally seeing clearly realising that my brother havent been in my home ever since i moved from home my other brother that promised me to help me move in to my new apartment but decided that he didnt want to, leting me carry all of my stuff up 4 stairs alone okay soo i askd my dad for help with the big things but...he has bad knees soo i feelt guilty to have to ask him..... do i need to tell you that in all of this my health is not the best either....
in all of this mess ofcourse i had to fall in love again and like always the guys i meet there is always some sort of problem....and this one loves to hang out on awsome webbsites that i probably shuldne mention here maybe i will blow up hes perfekt little online life and i wuld not like to do that now wuld i :)
soo if your still reading your probably thinking im a diva or maybe wierdo, or maybe something else you have in your vocabulary of "totally fake words i have to use" but you know what when my dad asked me the other thay why i cant just be normal my answer is simpley f*** it you know what , hate me if you like, screw my life up if you like and pleas do tell me how to live my life but ever expect me to listen.
This world is fake , we put in fake b**s , we have fake lifes and all are trying to be the same in a world of normal what ever that means but im soo sorry but your probably living in somethign fake right now....either your husband is f*** someone with out you knowing it or your famaly hides the sicret of a drug problem or similar maybe your adopted and dont know or maybe your having a sickness and trying to pretend that all is okay and soo on....oh yes i culd do this forever.....
soo if your still reading your probably thinking that im a negative person, and...
YES i am cuz i know reality and im sorry to spoil your day but somethimes its better to exept a horrible truth then to live in something fake. Believe it or not but i feel better once i eccepted that life is what it is.
thats it for now....sorry if my spelling is bad lol....
